last night we plaied at the turtle days variety show, in churbusco. this past week my nerves have been up high as we have practiced and prepared for this and next weeks wedding. joey had prepared a great tail that had everyone cracking up. the show went alright, and afterward we received numerous complements. it was a fun night.

My Dad will be receiving the Supplier of the Year Award from General Motors for his company Thursday. I am very proud of him, and I long for a picture of him durning this moment to hang beside a picture of my Grandpa receiving a fourty year award.

Tonight however I am tired, enjoying a wonderful night.

I get to see Weezer!

in other very good news, I received a wonderful email from Alanna of distantvoices.net and hopefully i will be moving this website to that location in several weeks, or days. and on top of that i received two emails about my other website, one of a blessing from a youth group in Africa and one from Jon about doing some brushing up on the page. both were excellent emails, and while i have neglected my sites for the past several weeks they have gained attention, and hopefully i can keep busy with them.

tomarrow a story, i promise, and a drool, for now goodnight.

eventfilled summer days have begun to follow me for the past several weeks, with preparation for a talent show, senior open houses, a wedding, and keeping time for jennifer.

today i began listening to pinkerton again, after a two week lasp. without this cd i would have completely turned my head to jen this spring, due to a second breakup. but listening to words that don't tell my life exactly, but tell my emotions exactly, keep me content. i only wish i had more cds to listen to this good. infact i could dedicate half the songs out to particular people, and not just jen.

opps... i just got a email from nolan. he told me if i call his girlfriend a bitch again then he's leaving the group. tough luck, considering the group is breaking up in two weeks anyway! i just honestly have no desire to be around people who mock and make fun of me for their own entertainment. i know for the rest of the world that the jokes are funny, and that i should just laugh along at my own GOD GIVEN disabilities. if i was in a wheelchair noone would dare say a very negative commet about my legs, but since i have a speech impairment it seems proper to tear apart everything i say wrong. the thing is, i just can't avoid these people, they are close to my friends...and probaby the only reason why the guys and jen don't mock me is because they are around me too much.

sometimes we just need to realize that people will always be stupid, and that the only person who cares about your self from being hurt is yourself, and i depend too much on others to admit to that fact. why do people like nolans jen and jens tiffany love to hate me. why can't they leave my life. i know God keeps them around for a reason, because he gives me the easiest times to testify my faith to them, i mean those two say the stupidest things bluntly to my face and i know exactly how to reply...but it's impossible to get across to those who attend church every sunday and know the bible better than you do how they need to reexamine their lives. and the constant insults about being eric michael bradley just make me bitter. hum.

i've gotta redesign this place...give me a few weeks, i'm busy and under attack from the evil people.

and yes, i mispronounced half of those words.

i'm going to bed