what a crazy day ahead!

i woak up this morning by the sound of edmond, my five year old brother, screaming his head off in his bedroom below me. i am so thankful for moving on campus next year. while i may not get to bed until 2 in the morning (as i did playing euchure last night) i won't have a five year old screaming because of mommy yelling. at least i pray not.

the guys are comming to school today! AND on top of that Huntington North's band director will be playing next to me tomarrow at the Sundae in the Park concert. I am really excited to have a excellent player by me, and I can ask him about Mr. Myers! it will be a wonderful thirty six hours ahead.

hey hey it's Friday Five time again

1. What are your hobbies? humm, well the computer..i'm on it a lot surfing my limited webpages. then there's writing, nice to do with a cup of coffee in a half filled coffee house. and then there's music, that's my big one: french horn in the concert band, mellophone and trumpet in the quartet, downloading music, watching drum corp contest, and hopefully joining a drum corp very soon.

2. Do you collect anything? If so, what? I collect clippings of various writings, and keep them to read on rainy days, plus i collect brass instruments (or so it seems) and quartet music (or so it really seems).

3. Is there a hobby you're interested in, but just don't have the time/money to do? biking big time, a better webpage, and small scale traveling...or go on tour

4. Have you ever turned a hobby into a moneymaking opportunity? i do peoples taxes...but that's not a hobby...i got into the webpage thing sorta...but it never really started

5. Besides web-related stuff (burbs, rings, etc.), what clubs do you belong to? hum Bad Dog IV...wait...Liberitian Party, Econ Club on campus, Juice Party club...well not yet anyway, little things

a busy day, right when i need it most

today all of a sudden became a event filled day, with assignments flying, a exam comming up in several hours, and all of this unknowning happening with a lack of sleep on my part, yet the sun came out, and while the events of the past several days have been challenging, i am alive, and thankful.

ta ta

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bad dog iv announcement

the brass quartet of kuhndog bryan kuhn, whipped nolan morse, coffee eric bradley, and pizza joey shepherd will be preforming live at the south whitley town park saturday april 27th durning the community garage sale starting at 9 am. playing your favorite swing, classic rythmn blues and rock, big band, patroitic and original brass band tunes free of charge. come out and enjoy the show!

today is a beautiful day, and has been wonderful since the begining. i love hugs.

i applied for my night job this summer. i will start as soon as school is over, and will have two jobs to keep me busy durning the summer months. i am hoping i can save up enough to buy a french horn, and for dci and dcm tickets. i am happy happy happy about that.

well off to class i go.

can i say that i miss you… and that i am longing for something more. i don’t want to go back, but wondering how to heal the right now, to repair or rather, find a new path to the future, while taking with us what we had. i long for those moments of the interconnectedness, of silences filled with meaning, and your being just close to mine. -Maura Mae

i want to write so much, have written page after page on paper, yet just can't say anything here. sigh.

i was just watching a feature on cnn about three high school seniors who were preparing for college, and how they were basically killing themselves and destorying their youth by working non stop to get into a ivy leauge school. their reasons were quite simple: great paying jobs. does anyone remember september 11th? last time i checked we were attacked by terriorist of the world community because of our materialist ways. yes...i know there were other reasons, amoung foregin policy in the middle east and other reasons, yet i think that many in my generation are walking directly into a time bomb. one inwhich all that claim to be americans will be blown up with.

many of us have become complete work a holics. working around the clock, sleeping miminial hours a day, trying to get as much done possible durning the day. with this we are improving our paychecks, and increasing our material processions, yet we are giving up so much. no longer do we have time to be with our friends, and to form new friendships. no longer do we have time to be with our familys...and with it divorce rates are sky rocketing, and children are hating their parents for their complete lack of interest. and while this pattern has torn our society, and been rubuked by the world community, we keep pushing, not looking back at anything, and not knowing what the future will look like.

i am lucky myself to live in a beautiful home. to own my own computer, to walk on a beautiful yard, and watch a big screen tv. yet my father is never home, never around to spend time with me, to even talk to me without being drunk. my mother is always out, busy with her own job, night after night frozen dinners are norm for meals. i don't know my parents, all i know is their paychecks.
and so as i watch these peers of mine are walking into the exact same situation that i am. they are going to be hated by their children. they are going to be hated by the international community. they are going to hate themselves.

our society as a whole is walking into disaster, and i'm scared to death.